Me in My World

Friday, July 14, 2006

maybe ba..

hmm todae was njco alumnite everything was hmm quite okie i guess like a celebration with music food fun and laughter haha kinda glad everything went on well.. hmm thanks to everyone for making it successful hmm met up with loads of seniors, know new ones and made frenz.. hmm gonna miss yenping meisee yewee jing xin michelle zenwea cherie gwenda wanling all the xian yue seniors and many many more.. hmm i promise i'll do my best de rest assured..

hmm i dunno where to start.. actually i am hurt.. totally xin sui le..i tot i won't be affected.. piggie tot so too however i was super wrong about myself i realise how concerned i was about the matter.. when shawn showed me the pic my mood totally fell to its deepest point.. this isn't the first time le but i couldn't handle my feelings.. for the past few days and accumulated till todae i dunno my heart totally sank to the bottom guess no one will ever understand the feeling of digging deep into ur heart when it is empty.. i dunno how to react.. i dun understand many of ur rejections.. i know i trust u loads but i doubt i can survive long on trust without assurance anymore.. guess todae was the limit for me.. i missed u loads..really alot but there wasn't even a chance to talk at all.. it's always jus thinking of u its hard to survive i guess but u won't understand ba.. i dun really care wad people tell me..whether it is to put u down or wadever comparison they make against u and their bfs.. i stood by u and told them proudly "he's still the best" i hope it's jus a moment of emotions and it's jus me that this happened.. let me hate myself for this.. i will be fine de yea..maybe..maybe..

*amelia*11:28:00 PM;